Awake at Three in the Morning
You wake in the same hour most nights, and there is nothing to do with it. The house is quiet, it is too early to get up, and the phone is the only thing within reach.
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You wake in the same hour most nights, and there is nothing to do with it. The house is quiet, it is too early to get up, and the phone is the only thing within reach.
Read onYou have asked for the same thing for a long time. Nothing has changed, and you have stopped saying it out loud to anybody.
Read onNothing is wrong enough to call a crisis. You have simply been waiting a long time for something to move, and no one has asked you about it.
Read onYou have looked after people for years. It has not been remarked on, and at some point you stopped expecting it to be.
Read onYou still pray. It has stopped producing any feeling at all, and you have started to wonder whether that means something has gone.
Read onThe fear is not about you. It is about a son, a daughter, a grandchild — someone you cannot reach and cannot help from here.
Read onSomeone explained why it did not happen: you doubted, you spoke it wrong, you did not believe hard enough. It has stayed with you.
Read onYou want to read something, and every time you open it you land somewhere that means nothing to you and close it again.
Read onThe house is quieter than it used to be. The days are long, and there is a stretch of the evening with nothing in it.
Read onYou have kept going for a long time. You are still going. It has stopped feeling like strength and started feeling like there was never a choice.
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